Finding Balance

Yesterday was a tough day for me. I had to make a decision I really did not want to make. I realized that I was completely burnt out.

Actually, I think I have known that for a while but have been in denial. Slowly but surely though...I had no choice but to face it.

The last few weeks have been pretty crazy. I have been doing the blog, going to the gym, working every day, going to Weight Watchers, sitting in Nutrition Courses two days a week, and then spending at least a third full day studying. I wonder why I got sick? My days have been starting as early as 3:30am because I wanted to do everything and refused to let my clients suffer in the process. The end result, however, was that I was the one that suffered.

This past week it really came to a head. I found myself doing Real Estate work on my laptop in nutrition class on Tuesday. Real Estate must always come first but what is the point of paying for a course is your not really "present".

I had a test scheduled for Thursday (yesterday) and an assignment due as well, but work was the priority of the day Wednesday so when I got home in the evening I studied until about 11pm, went to bed and set my alarm for 3:30AM.

When I woke up, not only did I still need to study for the test but I hadn't even started my assignment. At first I thought "no problem". They are kind of "honour system" assignments because the answers are actually in the back of the textbook. So I started copying the answers from the back of my textbook onto my assignment.

As I was doing this reality clicked in. I realized I was not learning ANYTHING by doing this and I was becoming a basket case. So I made the decision to drop the Anatomy and Physiology course.

I am absolutely NOT dropping the program. Just accepting the fact that it might take longer than I thought to complete the program, and sometimes, work will be too busy and I will have to take a break from school.

I don't like quitting (and I am NOT quitting) but my health was declining in pursuit of health...if that makes any sense.

Balance is vital and I need to find it again.

I will miss my friends in the course, and the Institute of Holistic Nutrition itself, very much, but I know I will be back. I will either return Mid-June or Mid-July depending on how crazy Real Estate is.

It was a harder decision then you might understand. Bonds are formed when you undertake things and become part of a group. Sometimes those bonds are hard to break, even if it is only temporarily.

To my friends at the Institute: I miss you already!

Be healthy,

Alan