Well that was brutal

Just went through a really rough caffeine withdrawal..but I survived.

I started doing a cleanse that required no caffeine and I figured this was as good a time as any to finally buckle down and kick the habit.

The problem was a cleanse is supposed to release everything and it seemed to me that taking any medication to deal with the withdrawal headaches would have the opposite effect. It would suppress rather than release. So it had to be done drug free.

I have to tell you if you don't think caffeine is an addiction...try going off it. I was in agony. The headaches were so bad I was debilitated for 24 hours and vomited three times. I was withdrawing from a serious addiction just like any other addiction.

After the first 24 hours things got better and I had a mild headache for another 24 hours but now the headache is pretty much gone.

So the caffeine withdrawal is done but the cravings still linger on. I would kill for a coffee right now.

I know I can have decaf but want to break the habit of automatically needing coffee every morning so I will force myself not too.

Will have a decaf tea later in the day though.

Be healthy!

Alan

A Message For The Wednesday Night WW Meeting Group

Hi all.

Going though major caffein withdrawal today so won't write much. Head is absolutely pounding. Will blog about it tomorrow.

My cousin Barb called today and asked me to post a message of the blog.

Apparently after I left last week a group of people discussed going to Botanical Gardens Jazz festival after tomorrow'a meeting.

Barb looked into it and she says it is a "go" for all who want to attend but it isn't free. Entry is $13 or $10 for seniors.

Barb says if you want to go, bering a salad and paper plate etc with you and people can head over after the meeting. The Jazz festival runs from 6:30pm - 8:30pm.

If you can't make it tomorrow (like I can't) Barb says not to worry. We can do it again in a couple of weeks.

Be healthy,

Alan

STARING DOWN THE CHOCOLATE

There is a delicious chocolate covered cookie three feet away from me. There used to be six.

We had a return B&B guest bring us a box of the most delicious chocolate cookies I have ever had in my life. Yes I had one...ok ok...I had two...yesterday. Oh my god....soooooo good.

One remains. It is on Jamie's desk but he isn't here and I feel like there is an invisible force pulling me toward it...it feels like I have no choice...it wants me....and I want it...we were meant to be one.

That is how I am feeling as I type this.

It is also the attitude that got me fat in the first place. The feeling that food and I were meant to be.

It is all a lie.

That chocolate cookie is going to make love to me and then attach itself to me and never let go. It will follow me everywhere I am and make me miserable. It will do everything it can to sap the energy out of me so I just feel like lying around at home instead of going to the gym where I might find something better. It is a manipulative self-serving cookie who will make love to anyone that wants it. It is the kind of cookie that seduces you into cheating with its insatiable good looks.

I will resist. I will not let that whore of a cookie deprive me of my happiness for the sake of a short wild fling.

It is nothing more than a common hussy. I deserve better. So do you.

Be healthy!

Alan

Inspired

Hi Everyone!

Do you ever wake up inspired? It doesn't happen to me a lot but this morning it did. I woke up (at 4AM) and the first thing I thought was...I want to write my blog. It has been too long!

How have you all been?

I am doing great. I guess that shouldn't be that surprising. One always feels more inspired when they feel great don't they?

I can honestly say that I have been good...no wait...I have been practically perfect for 7\seven days now. I can only say "practically" perfect because I had some free samples at the Costco demo tables yesterday.

I have also gone for a couple of visits to see my friends Stacey and Lauren for a couple of colonics at VitaLife Digestive Wellness Clinic so I am getting cleaned right out. I know I know...some of you are thinking that is information you didn't need to know but if you want to be healthy and protect against future disease I highly recommend them.

Lauren made an interesting comment when I was there.

I was talking to her about how I always seem to do so well and then seem to sabotage myself. She said she could relate (although she does not have a weight issue that I am aware of) as she does the same type of thing. She thinks it is because she likes the challenge of starting something new.

That, my friends, was an eye opening thought for me. Maybe that is part of my issue. I am always saying "change" keeps me going, but maybe there is a downside to it. Perhaps I can actually sabotage myself in the quest for a new challenge. Definitely food for thought (no pun intended).

I still thing change is critical to success though. Boredom will always send you travelling down the wrong path.

Anyway...I just had to pop my smiling face back into the picture and say that I am alive, well, and feeling inspired. I hope you are too.

Be healthy!

Alan

P.S. I big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sister Sondra today :-)