Emotional Eating & Drinking

Do you ever eat or drink just because you are pissed-off?

I did last night. Drink anyway.

Let me preface this by saying I have an amazing husband.

I quite honestly don't know how ANYONE could live with me. I'm not putting myself down. I actually LIKE myself :-) It's just that I have a tendency to go on and on about things and I know it can drive people close to me crazy. I tend to be "ON" 24 hours a day and sometimes I know Jamie would really like my Duracell battery to "take a licking and STOP ticking already!" LOL

I know this because I am my mother's son. My mom was an amazing amazing amazing woman but sometimes I just wanted to "turn her off". She loved to talk...and talk....and talk...and talk...lol.

I tend to get fixated on things and just go on and on about them...oh well..none of us are perfect right?

Anyway, all relationships have their bumps and last night we had one. It was by no means the end of the world but the first thing I did was open a bottle of wine. The last thing I did was finish the bottle of wine :-(

The evening wasn't a total disaster. We actually went out for dinner with our very good friend Ian and had a really nice time. It was "dim sum" so pretty hard to make healthy choices but I was reasonable with what I ate and feel pretty good about it. We had a great time with Ian.

I guess the point of today's blog is really to raise my own awareness of what I do to myself...I am definitely an emotional eater/drinker.

Perhaps just voicing the reality of this will help keep me "aware" and smarter next time.

Things still aren't quite back to normal with the "hubby" yet but they will be. As everyday goes by I realize more and more that no matter what happens in this world I am am the luckiest person out there because he is by my side :-)

Be healthy!


Alan

I'm A Happy Camper!

Well, it looks like I survived the day of eating I blogged two days ago about totally unscathed! I weighed in at Weight Watchers and I was down 3.4 Pounds! Yeah!!!! Only 26.2 to go :-). At least that is according to Canada Health Guide.

I am a little concerned that that weight may be a bit too low for me though but we will head in that direction and see where it makes sense to end up. In the past I have reached the Health Guides maximum weight for my height (which is 179 pounds) and it was ok but I have put on muscle since then so it might not make sense the second (well...12th) time around.

Some of you might recall that in a blog I wrote last week I talked about my habit of considering the evening after my official "weigh-in" a "free" night. I vowed at that time that I would behave this Wednesday night and I think kept my promise. I did eat out at Ginger Restaurant but I chose a vegetarian option which was basically vegetables and brown rice. It was delicious and pretty healthy :-)

I guess this week just goes to prove that if you do "blow it" occasionally, it is not the end of the world, as long as you get right back up and get yourself back on track.

Weight Watchers would probably say I didn't blow it at all. I have weekly "points" I am permitted to use for fun and I exercise a lot which means my weekly points plus my activity points probably kept me in balance.

Whether in balance or not, however, two days ago was an incredibly UNHEALTHY day.

Then again...it was just a day.

Be healthy!

Alan

It's Weigh-In Day Again!

Well, tonight is it. The weigh-in that really counts. Last week was my "wake up call" weigh-in, where I had to step on the scale and face the reality. I was 29.6 pounds over goal. Sigh.

Today I find out if I am heading in the right direction again.

If I could only exclude ONE day (don't we get free days? LOL) I would be "down" for sure but that free day was only the day before yesterday so how much of an impact will that have when I step on the scale? We will soon see.

Of course I WANT to be "down". Who doesn't? Regardless of the outcome however, I have zero doubt I am on the right track.

I have no idea whether anyone really gives a damn about this blog...but it is helping me so I am going to keep doing it. I have never really been religious but I think I finally understand how healing confession can be :-).

I see myself in a year as a healthy holistic eater, and will encourage others to do the same (without being one of those annoying people who know everything and never gets invited over to other people's places for dinner because no one knows what you will eat)! I love being invited over for dinner so please don't EVER stop the invitations! You know I'll bring the wine :-)

When I get there I want to be able to look back and see my struggles and what I accomplished, and I want be able to show people who are starting to venture down the same road (perhaps for the 50th time like me) that I have been there too and it is possible. I can't think of an easier way to show people than a documented blog of this particular journey.

So how do I get form "here" to "there"? One step at a time. This road is clearly going to have many hills and valleys but I will get there. As Trudeau once said "Just Watch Me!"

Be healthy,

Alan

When Disaster Strikes

OK I blew it yesterday...big time!

But before anyone starts feeling bad for me...don't. I am actually in a good frame of mind and I am RIGHT BACK ON TRACK which is the main thing.

If you have been following my blog you may recall that I mentioned that I had this ridiculous habit of eating Chocolate and Ice Cream while studying for a nutrition exam. Ludicrous but true :-(

Well..guess what? I had an exam this morning and I was studying for it yesterday...at least I was supposed to be.

I started off the day with the absolute best of intentions...I was going to study for this exam without eating any crap. I was going to prove to myself I could do it!

I got up real early, was at the gym by 6:00AM and home by 8:30AM and ready to go.

Before I could begin studying though I had Real Estate work I had to do. It is my job and it has to take priority...fair enough.

It finally came time to do some studying early afternoon but I couldn't bring myself to start. I really wanted that junk I am used to having when I study so I thought I would compromise and have a couple of slices of good, thin crust organic Pizza. It actually wasn't too bad of a plan except two slices became four slices.

Alright, so I am done with the pizza, so I should be ready to study right? Well...I got the books out anyway. No studying occurred though. Instead I went back and did more Real Estate work.

Before I knew it it was 5 o'clock, I hadn't started, and not only did I really want junk I felt I simply wouldn't be able to start studying unless I had it. Sooo...I went to the store and bought stuff I could bring home that at least I could convince my partner was low calorie even if it was unhealthy.

I got a big bottle of Coke Zero, two bags of flavoured rice crackers and came home acting as if I was somehow doing the right thing. I know I know...if any nutritionists out there are reading this they would have much rather I bought REAL junk instead of a bunch of artificially modified low fat junk.

What I brought home didn't look too bad so my partner didn't say anything other than "Can I have some Coke Zero?". Whew! Good thing I didn't mention the snickers bar I ate while walking home! LOL

After I scarfed that down it was dinner time and even though I was totally stuffed I still had a big helping of Spaghetti for dinner!

So what was the meal plan for the day again?:

4 slices of Pizza
1 snickers bar
2 bags flavoured rice crackers
1 litre of coke zero
Large portion of Spaghetti
No breakfast (perhaps part of the problem :-) )

Now there is a healthy day for you!

OH MY GOD!!!!

After all that can you guess what happened next? I felt too bloated and sick to study so I went to bed.

I got up at 4:00 this morning, studied for six hours straight and wrote the exam.

I think I did ok but should have done better.

To be honest though, I know it is just a day in my life. Will it mean I don't lose weight when I step on that scale Wednesday?

Perhaps.

Of course it will be disappointing but in the scheme of things the world hasn't ended and I am right back on track today.

Someday I will figure out how to break the connection between studying and eating.

Be healthy!

Alan

Weight Loss...Health...or both? Hmmm....

Yesterday I can say I ate well from a weight loss perspective, but can I honestly say I ate healthy? Probably not. I didn't eat BAD but there certainly weren't enough fruits and veggies in the mix. Overall though...still way better than I used to eat.

The question of "Health" vs "Weight-Loss" is a tough one though and they don't always go together. Which takes priority?

Oh I know I know, the answer is supposed to be HEALTH of course! But lets be real here. I would hazard to say that 75% of us trying to lose weight would throw health out the window in a second to get to our goal faster. It's not the right answer, but it's probably the real answer.

I remember Wynonna Judd talking on Oprah once about how frustrated she was that she was working so hard and she was only losing about 2 pounds a week. Oprah correctly told her that 2 pounds a week was a safe rate of weight loss. Wynonna then turned to Oprah, looked her in the eye and said "I don't care". At that moment we were one.

I am really trying to be healthy but if decisions are more geared toward weight loss then health right now I know I will sometimes make that compromise (I'm not saying I SHOULD...just that I probably will). I often want "low calorie and fast" rather than "low calorie and good for me". That is something I am work on changing but it is a slow process...one step at a time.

As I learn more about nutrition and the dangers of processed foods, artificially low fat foods, and the benefits of some "fattening foods" like nuts and coconut oil, it can all become quite confusing, so for now I have to simplify it as follows:

1) Try to stay away from processed foods
2) Try to keep the calories down (or"points values" in my case since I am a Weight Watcher).
3) I may get confused as to what I should and shouldn't eat from a nutritional/health plan perspective but after all these years I already KNOW what I like to eat that makes me fat and there is no "confusion" associated with it...so stay away from that stuff!
4) At least TRY to get some fruits and Veggies in :-)

I think if I make those the goals for now I am already ahead of the game compared to where I used to be and once I reach goal again I can refocus on becoming the health freak I aspire to be :-)

Sound good to me anyway!

Be healthy!

Alan

Barely Avoided Being A Hypocrite!

Hello All!

Well...I did it...another good day...but it was tough! After posting my blog yesterday about the dangers of free weekends I came sooooo close to having a free Saturday yesterday.

It was plain and simply a hungry day!

In the afternoon Jamie (my partner) asked me to get some Avocado Oil from the Health Food store a few blocks away. I readily agreed but my mind was envisioning the picture of the new juicy burger I saw on a poster outside the "The Gourmet Burger Co." that is across the street from the health food store. That's when the self-rationalization I am so extremely adept at started to click in.

As I walked toward the stores I began to convince myself that if I had the Burger and NOT the fries I was in fact making a HEALTHY CHOICE. No one could argue that that is a totally healthy and sound judgment call right?. Of course my mind started thinking about my blog. How could I possibly blog about how Saturdays should not be free and then just eat crap on my own? As I approached the store I remembered that the hypnotist I saw told me that I would think "health" when I saw the colour "red". Friday there was red everywhere I looked, but when I needed it yesterday? Nowhere in site!

I took a deep breath and told myself to at least go to the health food store BEFORE the Burger place. Maybe I would find something healthier there. Whether it was the fact there was indeed "red" in the store or perhaps just the strength I mustered up to buy a healthy sesame bar first I am not sure, but I bought the sesame bar and eating it took the "edge" off enough that when I went to the Burger place and really looked at the picture of the "juicy burger" I saw it for what it was.Three quarters of the frickin thing was a huge white bun and toppings!. I walked home after that feeling pretty proud of myself and had a healthy lunch at home.

That evening Jamie was babysitting for our neighbours and the thoughts started again. I wanted to order Chinese Food (Sweet and Sour Spare Ribs, Fried Rice, Egg Role, and yeah...I guess there might be a little veggie there to leave on the plate afterward). I was alone so who would know?!

Perhaps the damn hypnotist thing is actually working because the more I though of that plate with the bright red Sweet and Sour Spareribs, the more I came to my senses. I had some steak and a salad instead.

I was on my own though and it was Saturday night so I really didn't feel like working, so I started experimenting with seeing if I could figure out how to build a website (with the help of free software of course). I registered a domain and created the following: My Nutrition and Health Website.

I am not sure exactly how to use it to make it a tool for all blog reader's trying to get healthy but am certainly open to ideas. Let me know your thoughts!

Anyway, it is a crazy day with my Real Estate Job today so I better get to work.

Have a great Sunday everyone and....be healthy!

Alan

IT'S THE WEEKEND!

Good Morning All!

For someone trying to lose weight, "It's The Weekend!" is  potentially the most dangerous thought one can have. The weekend means a free license to do anything right? 

Isn't it amazing how we tell ourselves this? I am a Real Estate Broker so I work pretty much every weekend but somehow I still spent most of my life thinking weekends were "free"? If I add that to my free Wednesday nights (See blog written Thursday morning) I am in big trouble!

They mentioned in Weight Watchers last week that if you consider weekends "free" then you are not paying attention at least 104 days a year. That is three months or 1/4 of the year! 

That is one heck of a lot of free time!

To me that isn't the main issue. The main issue is health. What kind of crap am I throwing in my body on those free days? If it isn't a natural product does my body even know how to process it? Nutrition courses are teaching that the answer is pretty much a resounding "no". 

I try to buy Organic now but then go out and eat crap. That means I get the pesticides, trans fats etc. anyway so what is the point? 

I think the point is we ALL have to stop eating the crap!  Treats are totally OK but they should be Treats!  

I think this is the closest I will ever come to preaching...promise. My goal is not to tell people what to do. My goal is entirely self-centred at the moment. It is to keep me healthy and on track.

Having said that so many people have contacted me through facebook or email to say that this blog is inspiring them to do something about their own health/weight issues. That is sooooo coool but also gets me thinking that if this really does inspire someone other than me maybe there is a way to support each other using this blog. 

To be honest this is the first blog I have ever done but I think if people join as "followers" then they can enter their own comments in the page and keep me up-to-date on how they are doing and what works and doesn't. It's still a totally selfish initiative as it will keep me motivated and the world does revolve around me right? Just kidding :-)

Funny how I am able to just "blab" on this blog. Didn't know what I was going to write when I sat down five minutes ago and now I am writing a frickin novel! LOL

I went to the hypnotist yesterday. It was a good session but to be honest I am not sure if I was hypnotized or asleep. Apparently every time I see the colour "red" now I will think about being healthy. At least that is what my sub-concience has been told. I had no idea how much red there is in the world until you actually start noticing it. I must be thinking about being healthy every ten seconds or so now!

I am, in fact, being pretty healthy though, so whatever it is that is keeping me on track I hope it keeps on doing it!

Yesterday was great from a food perspective. After dinner I was still hungry and came real close to making more food...then I thought....OK Alan...if you are going to put calories in your body do you want food or do you want wine...you can't have both. Three glasses of wine later I was feeling pretty good:-)

Have a great weekend everyone and....

be healthy!

Alan

Hmmm...Good Days Can be Boring

Hi All!

Not much to report today. I was EXTREMELY good food-wise yesterday so no little stories to tell.

I must have worked out real hard though cause I am REAL sore!

Doing this blog is interesting. Succeeding can be disappointing as it makes the blog far less interesting.

Today I see the hypnotist again. There are four more sessions and I understand that it doesn't work unless you want it to so....Man hypnotism is amazing! LOL. Seriously though, I really do want it to work!

Will let you know how it goes when I blog tomorrow.

Off to the gym.

Have a great day everyone and be healthy!

Alan

Sometimes There Is No Pleasure in Being Right!

Well....I did it. I faced the weight scale.

I said yesterday that I thought I was about 30 pounds over goal weight. Well, now it is official. I am actually 29.6 pounds above goal. Just can't get much closer than that!

Just in case you are wondering. The "goal weight" is based on Weight Watcher's Weight ranges which are based on height, and Weight Watchers basis their weight ranges on the government's National Health Guidelines. So the government says I'm fat! LOL

To be honest I am not THAT stressed. This time around the weight has come back on in a much more "proportional" manner than it has in the past so I am not as embarrassed to walk out the door in the morning, don't feel a need to put a pillow in front of my stomach when sitting on the couch when company is over (as if it would hides something), and most importantly, I am unable to rest a plate of food on my stomach to eat off of. That used to make eating so much easier :-)

Don't get me wrong though...I still do have a tummy and it is going to go!

My biggest self analysis question for the day is "Why do I consider Wednesday nights FREE nights?". I have this thought in my head that because I weigh in on Wednesdays at 6:00pm I can eat what I want that night. After all...I don't have to get on a scale again for a whole week right?

I attend Weight Watchers in Burlington which is about an hour drive away because the leader there, Cindy Sinclair (love you Cindy!), is amazing, as is the group. My brother Mike and his partner Ann live in Burlington so I went to visit them after the meeting. They had a nice spread of food out on the table with healthy and non-healthy options. There was a beautiful and fresh fruit salad, yogurt, and then cookies, Samosas, Coffeecake etc.

Guess which options I chose? Oh well...I did eat some of the fruit salad because I thought I should (and it was delicious) but I positively gorged on the Cookies, Samosa's and Coffee Cake! I would say that makes me an idiot but that is not what makes me an idiot...that is just the icing on the "cake" so to speak.

What make me an idiot is that I actually PLANNED to be unhealthy. I knew cake would be there (they told me ahead of time) and I didn't even try to come up with a strategy. I fully committed to eating it because it was Wednesday. I could have had the healthy options but no...I planned for cake!

What makes me a double idiot is that instead of thinking about my commitment to the "blog" and how I should be eating healthy, I actually started planning in my head what I would say in the blog about the fact that I HAD eaten it.

It is true that it is a week until the next "weigh-in", and it is also true it probably will not be reflected on the scale by then. It is also true I deserve treats now and then and fully intend to have them, but I purposely threw health out the window when healthy options were set in front of me.

So what is the point of all this blabber. It is live and learn!

The "Wednesday Night Self-Challenge" is now on! I will be writing about how good I was AFTER the meeting when I write next Wednesday.

Have a great day everyone.

Be healthy!

Alan

Today's The Big Day - Weigh In Day!

Good Morning!

Well this is it. The day I have to face my sins. At 6pm tonight I will have to get on a scale and face the music.

I am a lifetime member at Weight Watchers so technically I only have to weigh in once a month but that has probably been my downfall. If I don't face the music I can pretend life is just a bowl of Cherries when it is really just a plate of Cheeseburgers.

So along with my renewed vigour for health and weight loss comes my renewed commitment to get on that damn scale and officially weigh in once a week.

I have been good the last few days but it is nowhere near enough to undo the damage I have done. I am guessing I am up 10 pounds from my last weigh in which would put me about 30 pounds above goal. How did it happen?!!! I still think 10 pounds is muscle from all my weight lifting...but still...20 pounds! Yikes!

Speaking of Weight Lifting I worked out with my Nutritionist/Trainer friend Anthony yesterday. He suggested that we do light weights for a change. My first thought was THANK GOD!!!

What I didn't realize was that he meant light weight and high reps. He almost killed me! At the end I was bitching about lifting light weights. He told me he was going to go to my blog and tell the world I couldn't even lift 15 pounds! LOL. Tough on you Anthony....I just beat you to it :-)

Yesterday was a very healthy day. Good organic food including lots of fruits.

Today is a day I usually starve myself because I am getting on a scale but this is supposed to be about "health" more than "weight" so I am going to resist the urge to "starve for results" and eat. Eventually I would like to do a one day fast once a week and it would make sense to do that on Wednesdays so my weight is less altered by my last meal, but I am not psychologically ready to start that part of the process again.

Wish me luck and....be healthy!


Alan

When Company Comes For Pasta

Hey everyone!

Yesterday was an overall good day (no cupcakes!). I did have some more wine though. Hang on...need my coffee before I type anymore (yet another vice but what do you expect...it's 5:20 in the morning! :-))....god that's good. I'm back.

My big question for the day is what Pasta is the correct Pasta to serve guests: White or Whole Wheat? Something else?

We eat Whole Wheat if we are on our own but let's be honest...white just tastes better!

We had our awesome neighbours Josh and Alix (and their baby Delaney) over for Pasta last night along with a our twenty-something year-old friend Kimme who moved here from England. We affectionately call her "our daughter".

We went for the "taste" and served white Pasta but most of us are trying to be healthy so I think we made the wrong call. Problem is if you serve white everyone thinks (That was good but I shouldn't have eaten it) but if you serve whole wheat everyone thinks (that was healthy but the whole grain Pasta was kinda ...well...blah). We are used to whole wheat now but does anyone out there actually like it?

Anyway, our "daughter" Kimme announced at the table that she would be moving back to England June 8th. Breaks my heart. Apparently my hubby Jamie has known for a few weeks but she wanted to tell me in person and this was the first chance. Who knew Jamie could keep a secret that good! I know he can keep secrets from other people but thought he would tell me! :-)

I am proud of him for keep in his promise to Kimme though.

We love you Kimme and will miss you very much (tearing up now).

That's it for now! Time to start getting some work done now that the coffee is kicking in.

Be healthy!

Alan

Survived Day 2 of "Back on Track"

Today was a pretty good day for me food wise (although I did eat another cup cake). I had a protein drink early in the morning and a 4 egg omelet mid morning. That means a 4 egg meal two days in a row. Probably not smart.  I need to think of some good breakfast ideas and plan ahead!

Early afternoon I worked out hard with my friend Anthony the "nutritionist/trainer" and confessed my cup cake splurge to him. To my surprise he didn't have the heart attack I thought he would. I think he just pretended he didn't here it. The disappointment would be too much for him to handle!

The work out was a tough one. I worked out hard but felt kinda like puking. Didn't know why at first but realized later it was probably the bottle and a half of wine the night before. OK...I know...I have along way to go before I am healthy. I know graduating from the Institute of Holistic Nutrition at the end of next year will enable me to say I am a Registered Holistic Nutritionist but I have a long way to go before I am walking the walk.

Don't worry. I will get there if it kills me!

Dinner was very healthy: Fresh steamed fish and Bok Choy (sp?).

I was really hungry late though and made my self a sandwich but it was very healthy, and low fat, albeit processed.

Going to relax and watch a movie now. Shutter Island? Never heard of it but I know I probably should have.

Have a great night!

Be Healthy!

Alan

A Good Start...kinda/maybe

Ok. I think anybody reading this who has not been through the trials and tribulations of weight loss will think that yesterday was a horrible day for me, but I actually think that I did well because for the most part I was mentally aware of what was going in my mouth. I didn't make perfect choices and I did indulge but I made better choices than I would have otherwise.

Breakfast was poached eggs on 1 slice of 7 grain bread with pepper to add spice. I was out in my car doing the Real Estate Job in the day and I got really hungry but I purposely avoided sandwiches etc. as I wanted to avoid the bread intake. I did have Chili at Tim Hortons. I know it's still processed foods but I said "no" to the roll and only had the Chili. Two manderin oranges for a mid-afternoon snack and then came the troublesome dinner.

Went to our friend Quade's for dinner and had delicious Vegetarian Lasagna (lots of cheese so not low fat but delicious) with Salad I had two helpings and then we had birthday chocolate cupcakes with chocolate icing for dessert. It was a belated birthday celebration for my partner. I know I should only have one but I had two. Also had about a bottle and a half of wine. I felt good :-))))

Disaster you say? Hardly! If you only knew what I was capable of. I think overall I did well and I am really motivated today. I am working out with my friend who's is a nutritionist and personal trainer today. He would have a heart attack if he knew I ate the cupcaked LOL (So I won't tell him) but he helps to keep me in check. I'm telling you if you live in the Toronto area and ever find yourself in need of a personal trainer and/or nutritionist call Anthony DiPasquale. He teaches nutrition at George Brown College here and I think he is the best in the business. His website is http://anthonydipasquale.com/ and I think he even works long distance with people. Contact him! You won't regret it. Just tell him Alan sent you :-)

I will continue to keep repeating my mantra to myself: "I Make Healthy Choices". Repeating this many times a day really seems to help!

Looking forward to a great day!

Be Heathy!

Alan

The Healthy Journey - Nutrition and Exercise

OK....Here I go. I don't know whether this is "Julie & Julia" inspired or just an attempt to yet again try something new but I have decided to document my journey to health. Is it for me or for others? Who cares! All I know is that this is what I need to do right now. It is something new and I need something new. I have had many journeys over my life. Gained and lost over 50 pounds a couple of times, been bad and good with exercise, but keep slipping back into old habits.

I will keep this entry short, and perhaps you will learn more about me as the weeks/months (years?) pass. I have done Jenny Craig (more than once) , Atkins, and Weight Watchers (a multitude of times and still go to Weight Watchers). I am a Real Estate Broker but feel a need to learn more about my overall body, improve my health, and then share my knowledge with others.

I do not know how much I will use what I am learning but I am studying to be a Nutritionist at the Institute of Holistic Nutrition. I am only on the third course of 19 courses but I will get there.

The problem is I am an idiot. LOL. I try to do all the right things and then I fall off the wagon. I actually study for Nutrition Exams eating Chocolate and Ice Cream and drinking pop because I need the "energy rush" to stay awake. How stupid is that?

I lost 50 pounds with Weight Watchers four years ago and I strongly believe in this program. I would tweek it a bit personally as I no longer believe in the national "healthy eating" guides as they are influenced by dairy board's etc., and Weight Watchers tends to follow the health guidelines of the countries they are operating in, but nonetheless the program is sound and can be extremely healthy. They de-emphasize the "Filling Foods" version of their plan but I believe it is the way to go and that should be the one emphasized. I would love to be a leader at Weight Watchers someday, or maybe run my own group program. Not so much for income, but just to help people learn and to keep myself motivated at the same time.

Over the years it is hard to stay inspired to keep the weight off though. In reality I haven't done it. 30 pounds of the 50 I lost has come back on. To be fair I weight train a lot now and at least 10 pounds of that is muscle but the stomach is much bigger than it should be.

So...Nutrition courses help, but it is not accomplishing my goal. At least not yet. I still eat crap.

Yesterday I started something new....5 sessions with a hypnotist to see if that will help. Session 1 was interesting. I want it to work and am putting faith in it. We will see. I am also trying to do self-hypnosis as they suggest (which I think is really just a form of meditating) while focusing on the Mantra "I make healthy choices". If nothing else it is a change and change is what I need to stay "on track".

My goal is to weigh in once a week at Weight Watchers (usually Wednesday nights) and write about my weight and journeys here. Maybe it will help to keep me on track.

If nothing else this is where I plan to keep it honest. Every trip to McDonald's, Burger King, Dairy Queen, etc. I will document here. Hopefully that will force me to see my reality so I emerge at the end as a heathy, qualified, nutritionist.

I don't know if anyone will ever read this, but maybe it doesn't matter. We all have our journeys. If you read my blog you may realize you are not alone. If you don't, just writing this may be what I need.

Here is hoping!

Be Healthy!

Alan